The author's widely praised memoir delves into her journey to grasp her sociopathy and bring attention to the frequently stigmatized and poorly understood mental condition. A blend of a podcast hosted by relationship expert Esther Perel and a juicy exposé. Before beginning kindergarten, Patric Gagne noticed she made others uneasy. Something about her made people react oddly, leaving her puzzled. She believed it was because she didn't experience emotions like fear, guilt, and empathy like her peers did. Instead, she often felt nothing, a sensation she found unpleasant. Attempting to blend in with society despite the overwhelming expectation to adhere to its norms proved too much for her. Therefore, Patric resorted to stealing, lying, and even occasional violence. Developing skills in lock-picking and home invasion, she sought to fill the void with something substantial. In college, Patric discovered her long-held suspicion: she was a sociopath. Despite being one of the first recognized personality disorders, over 200 years ago, mental health experts had neglected sociopathy for years. They informed her there was no treatment or chance for a regular life. Portrayals of sociopaths in media as monstrous madmen and villains left her feeling haunted. Her outlook for the future seemed bleak. Reconnecting with a past love, Patric catches a vision of a life beyond her diagnosis. Discovering that love still exists hints that she isn't a monster after all. Supported by her partner and a cast of intriguing individuals she encounters, she sets out to show that others like her aren't monsters either. It tells the uplifting tale of her quest to alter her destiny and her successful creation of a life brimming with love and optimism.
